I'm still floating on a cloud in la-la land, out of it. It's hot today in Toronto... I'm sweating, drinking big classes of ice water, roaming my house, doing random house-work-type things - laundry, dusting, washing cushion covers, washing the floors... I am a zombie-crazy-cleaning-mama-in-waiting lady.
I've been having on-and-off menstrual-like cramps for days. I had an appointment with my wonderful midwife yesterday and she said my cervix has thinned but not dilated. The cramps are due to my cervix working on thinning out. The baby is also between 7 and 9 pounds. She grew a lot last week. No wonder I've been so out of it. My official due-date is September 11, 9 days away, but both my midwife and my midwife sister-in-law predicted I'd go sooner than that. THIS ANTICIPATION IS DRIVING ME NUTS! My brain is mush and my body has been taken over completely.
I'm feeling anti-social because I just don't feel like myself, but I also feel squirrelly and a bit lonely. AH! So many people have been checking up on me and I'm so thankful. There was a staff meeting at the school I work at yesterday and a couple work friends mentioned they missed me, which is very sweet. I almost can't believe I won't be working for a whole year. My mat leave started yesterday! I don't necessarily miss the students I taught last year (I teach an alternative school program for teenage ladies who are pregnant or have babies), but I would love to know how they're doing. A couple students I had last year are returning to the program this year, so I'll see them in a month or so when I stop by to show off the bebe, but a few students graduated and I'd love to find out how they are.
My friend Jennifer (who is the lovely woman behind Castlemusic. I created this animation for her song "heaven" a few years ago) stopped by a few times in the past week or so and brought me presents!
Some bad-ass hand-me-downs. THANKS JENNIFER!! xo
I finally bought that geometric mobile I mentioned in an earlier post. It took about half-an-hour to put together, but it was totally worth it. I love it. I hope the bebe will love it too.
Today I dug out some of my vintage big-eyed kid art. I have a big collection that I gathered from thrift stores in my hoarding high school days. I'm trying to decide which ones to hang in the bebe's room. I keep thinking, am I already trying to make her into a mini-me?
BYE FOR NOW!
hi! just found your blog via a friend. congrats on impending motherhood! wishing you all the best.
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